Peace Part 2: Reconciliation

I was told in order to have peace you have to reconcile your feelings towards people, events, and yourself. You have to forgive yourself for the decisions that were made at the time you thought was the right thing to do and can not be changed in the present. You have to let go of all the negative emotions that block your future from flourishing. These emotions are called fears; and believe it! It will sabotage your future. I have been going to a cognitive rehabilitation therapist and what she teaches me, is that you have to "change your thoughts in order to change your behaviors". I do breathing exercises that put me in a trans like state in which she walks me through different type of scenarios. These exercises teach me that no matter what is going on around me I can remain in my peace and no matter what the situation is I can only control me and don't have to allow the situation to sway who I am. I am also learning that it is not my business to get involved in other peoples drama and can be a friend by supporting or giving a shoulder but understanding that they have to resolve. Trust me when I say for me this journey has been a painful experience and torturous at times but I thank God for his constant trust that he knew I was strong enough to handle it.