PEACE & LOVE

I recently discovered that making peace, starts first with self. I had to forgive myself for making some chooses that I thought were in the best interest of family and future. I allowed people to take advantage of me and now I had to take a long look at why this has been a pattern. The first step was taking responsibility for my part in the offenses. I discovered that I was trying so hard to be accepted, that I gave more of my time,money and effort. I now know that in order to have healthy relationships you have to be present and gifts do not make relationships. Acts are the core of all relationships and mutual understanding is the foundation. I am learning to verbalize getting my needs met and meeting my own needs.
The healing process has started and it's been refreshing to embrace the person I was so terrified to be. Vulnerability was never been a character trait that I would have ever identified as a strength, but when you are seeking to be authentic that is the most significant characteristic. At this time I feel balanced and for the first time in a long time PEACE.

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Healing

I have been through a series of really hurtful events from people who were suppose to be my biggest supporters and alias. I have not discussed this because I thought I was going through the motions of healing and not face the pain and heal through it. I carry my pain like a back pack and at a drop of a dime those wrongs haunt me. I loved so profoundly that I never imagined the pain it would feel to be betrayed, I did it for me and not the other person. I trusted with out limits. Now, all I do is question and it breaks my heart because it has changed me and I hate it. Making peace has become so difficult for me, I am still so angry, disappointed, bitter, hurt and can't seem to get passed all the pain. My process is going to be a slow and a lot of work, I am willing to do the work so I can become the person God wants me to be.

"Forgiveness is not about the person that wronged you"
@Diana Moore

I thank God for the special people who I can truly depend on and who love me unconditionally.